Why is the question, as everyone sees me as quite a strong person who just gets on with life, in general I think that is true. This week I spoke to the mechanic who looks after my car, it is 16 days away from MOT he told me it needed lots of welding and other jobs and that he thought I was wasting my money. This was not a great shock more of a disappointment, but as I drove home to my empty cottage I suddenly thought, my god I will soon be without a car, meaning I cannot work I cannot even buy a pint of milk I live to far out in the sticks. Next panic was I do not have much saved up, with John’s contracts coming and going, more money goes out than comes in, which means I would be looking for an old runner around car, now that fact scares the life out of me.
I sat last night trailing the Internet looking at cars, all sounding good enough, yet so scared I am going to be fleeced, when it got to the point I had my head in my hands I knew it was time to ask for help. Our neighbour across the fields is a fireman and does a lot with his own cars, he has a lot of knowledge about cars, he has been so kind offering the advice I needed what not to look at and also the cars that are more reliable than others. Just having someone to share that with made so much difference to me, he also put things into perspective a thing I sometimes loose sight of, so on Saturday I am out car hunting with not a lot in my pocket but hoping to get something which will keep me mobile for a while longer. We all need someone to share our problems with, so if asked for help please do give it.
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