I have never enjoyed the summer holidays or I should say the children’s summer holidays from school as much as I have this year. I just wanted the days of fun with the children to go on for ever, it has been special we have had more time in the pool, more time at the farm with the children running free, enjoying long picnics in the gardens. We also had day trips out to the seaside and the New Forest it has indeed been action packed.
Now the trees are already turning gold and you can feel Autumn in the air on the mornings and I know it will be back to routine very soon. These holidays have also been different as I have had to face more changes ahead which has made me have to sit and ask myself how selfish am I and how can I try not to be, the selfish part of me wants nothing to change yet the other me really only wants the best for my family so sometimes that intakes a sacrifice.
As many of you know I have a wonderful daughter Joanne, we are blessed with a special relationship which I would never want to hurt, we respect each other, when she told me that she and her husband had found a house they want to buy I should have been doing cartwheels for them. Instead the selfish part of me thought only one thing, they are leaving and taking Paige who I look after as her carer with them, and I also love her beyond reason. I sat and wept for something like 24 hours which drove poor John to distraction. My daughter is my best friend and I knew she only wants to give the children a big house and nice garden, at a price that they can afford,had it been just ten miles away nothing would have changed but because they are moving back to Grahams old home town Gosport it will mean everything will change. I know Grahams parents will take care of them all, they are good people, and they will enjoy being able to just walk around to them. I just cannot yet get my head around the future, I love Salisbury so much, I have had so many nice times there going into town with Paige taking her shopping and to the park, it just won’t be the same. Gosport is not hundreds of miles away but for me it may as well be, my old car is now falling to bits and as I will need to find a new job, I am faced with having to work weekends again, but in my heart I only wish them the very best, it is what they want and I will try and at least get there once a month, god willing. As for John and I we really don’t know what to do next, work is a big issue for us, if ever there is a chance to move nearer to them I think we would take it. But for now I am going to enjoy every last minute with them before they move, nothing is certain yet but for there sakes I hope they get there dream place. As another lady said to me be thankful it is not Australia as that is where her grandchildren are, so there is always a bright side.
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